05.10.09
Mother’s Day
It was a bittersweet 1st mommy’s day for me . . . had a nice lunch at my parent’s house this afternoon with the whole family. The day was full of memories of our sweet Logan and wishes for things that might have been if Logan were still with us. This was not at all how I envisioned my first mother’s day to be . . . in my mind, I imagined that Lance would get Logan from his crib & bring him into our room so that Logan could wake me up with hugs & sweet kisses. I imagined that we would spend the morning, snuggling in bed together before getting ready to go to lunch. I never imagined that I would be giving “good morning” kisses to the smooth wood of Logan’s urn, rather than his soft cheeks & tiny lips. I miss him.